Time to (wo)Man up!

This week on RFBLC I blogged this.  See somewhere between last year at this time, and right now, I forgot how to be motivated.  It is a big difference - last year I was gung ho, balls to the wall about getting healthy and making lifestyle changes that would last a lifetime.  I couldn't for the life of me think of why I am so much less motivated this time around...  Until I was looking through some of my digital photos albums from the past year - and it hit me like a giant exercise ball right in the head!  I lost 30 pounds last year.  I no longer look at photos of myself and think "fat thoughts".  I like the way I am looking these days - and that is huge for me*.  Sure, when I catch myself in our full length mirror getting dressed for work, I can point out all of the areas that need major work, but clothed and put together, I like where I am at.

And than reality sets in...

While I am really liking where I am at these days, I know I am only half way to my original goal of 65 pounds.  and if I think I look (and feel) better these days, I had to remind myself to think about how good it will be to look/feel even better a year from now.  I cannot settle for where I am now, when I can do so much more!  I have four weeks left of our family competition, and the good thing is, I will have even more weeks after that.  But for the sake of right now, and the wonderful thing that is short term goals, lets just take these next four weeks into account.  It is time to woman up and get motivated to reignite those changes I had been making and loosely following for the past year.

So here goes...  My short term goals for the next four weeks:

1. Food.  Logging my food daily (yes, that means even those sneaky glass(es) of wine after dinner!) Sticking within my caloric count for the day.  Fruits and veggies.  Water and tea.
2. Exercise.  No excuses.  30 minutes of exercise daily.  Walking.  Wii fit/Just Dance/Active 2.  Jillian, Theresa and Leslie. Work in 5,000 steps a day (yes, I realize the recommendation is 10,000 - but currently I barely break 2,000 in my normal routine.)
3. Sleep.  Start a routine.  In bed by 11:30pm LATEST during the week.  Out of bed by 7:30am workdays.  

There are more aspects I could be working on, but I find that baby steps and journaling seem to keep me on track - and these are my first steps.  No one can make these changes for me.  I have to want to make these changes, and have to make the choice to stick with it.  I WANT to make the changes, and I WANT/need to stick with it.  

I am sick of writing about the same roadblocks (roadblocks=excuses.  excuses I make to myself to justify not doing what I know I need to do) in every post.  And I am sure your sick of reading it.  Time to make some changes, time to do a Spring Cleanout, and keep moving forward.  I was looking at some old blog posts and I came across this line that I really love....  It refers to motivation, and while I have to be the one to want to be motivated, alittle help never hurts!   (Special shout out to my twitter peeps that are HUGE inspirations, and motivator helpers - yes I just made that word up.)

Help keep me motivated, and if I get too down on myself about anything-slap me through the computer!

*I got to the point in my life that I did not like what I looked like.  I was big.  Bigger than my friends (not that they would have ever told me that - but pics don't lie), and getting bigger.  It really does put a big dent in the ole self esteem when you really start to look at yourself in disgust.  It took me a while, and a few tries, but I am getting there...  and that is good!