I am a Loser!

...That is what I keep telling myself anyhow. No, not in a bad way, a good way actually! This is the first complete week of my family's Biggest Loser Competition. John and I are both committed to the competition, in addition to starting a healthy lifestyle food-wise all together. There are about 5 of us that are competing for the next three months for a large pot o' gold at the end of the competition. And while the money would be nice to win - I am making an effort to concentrate on implementing the eating habits, moderation, and exercise into my daily life for good.

But let's get real for a minute... this is me we are talking about, and like always - I headed into this competition like gang-busters. Week one, I am following my plan, exercising daily and accounting for everything that passes through my pie hole. Sounds good, right?! Well, in my previous attempts at getting back to my goal weight, this is how it always starts. However, give me another week, or even month, and that motivation I had at week one starts to where thin. I am not sure where I begin to stray, it could be that one dreaded entry into the drive-thru of and McRestaurant, I end up getting a cold bug, or is it just shear laziness? I am not sure of the answer to that question, although probably a mix of the three examples above could be it. But this time - it will be different I say... Really?!

Again, I cannot answer that for sure. However, what I do know is that this time it will be different because I am finally putting it all out there. I cannot do this alone, I NEED the motivation and accountability to push me to my goal. I am laying my plan out like this...

I am pledging, atleast for the next three months, the following:

• accounting for everything that I eat - no, I am not forbidding myself of anything, however, I am concentrating on moderation, and smaller portions. No more eating an entire bag of peanut m&m's and logging it as 1/2 cup of candy. If I eat it, it gets logged.
• working exercise into my day, every day - I am not talking extreme cardio 7 days a week, but slowly integrating more walking into my day (short walk after lunch perhaps?), following my T-Tapp routine beginning with my bootcamp, and playing more active games on the Wii.
• reading up new recipes that include more fruits and veggies - already got a stack of books from the library - one for each week. Motivators. Food porn. whatever you want to call it. Changing things up instead of poached fish and plain chicken breasts every day. Boring!
  
• reminding myself daily that not only do I want to do this - but I have to. For my health, and my self esteem.
  

By starting this competition with family - I am feeling good that we have a support network, people I need to be accountable to - people who can tell me with honest to God's truth to back away from the table and get my lazy butt up and exercise. I need that motivation!

I have that motivation this week. I am hoping to see some results come tomorrow at the first weigh-in, but if I don't - I will just have to work harder, and do better for next week.

Wish me luck!